~Last Blog of 2009/December 30th~

I've come to a conclusion; I don't want a boyfriend. I want to stay single. I'm completely comfortable with myself and I don't feel like dealing with anybody else's drama you know? On another topic, I really have to clean my room. It's still really bad. I went to Tysons yesterday! Sephora is my new love. I love their shop. I could live there. I want to go shopping! Oh and Banana never hung out with me this break so she sucks an extreme amount. Yeah have fun with that sentence missy. I'm watching House right now. I love this show. This year was really really really horrible, so I'm glad it's over. I'm hoping that 2010 will be a beast year. Patriots or Seahawks to the Super Bowl? I think yes. Yankees winning another World Series? I think yes. Capitals winning the Stanley Cup? I think yes. One of my driver's winning the Sprint Cup? I think yes.

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~Happy Holidays (not)~

Somehow my family has the ability to ruin Christmas every single year. A couple years ago it was my alcoholic grandmother who managed to ruin one of the best holidays. This year, it was pretty much everybody except for me. My brother has been a complete asshole lately and today he opened the present I got for him, because we open 1 present on Christmas Eve, and he played it for about 10 minutes, and told me that he didn't want to play it anymore. Then, my grandfather decided to build a freaking desk today. I was helping him for about 30 minutes, but then I got into an argument with Jordan, and my grandfather cussed me out calling me "useless" and "ungrateful" and "a selfish bitch." So I went into my room and stayed there for a few hours. When he tried putting the computer together, he fucked something up so now his keyboard and mouse don't work. My grandmother, of course, defended him and demanded me to fix the computer for him. I said no and kept my door shut. My mother is a complete mess. She has a friend over every single fucking Christmas; most annoying thing ever. They're all weird as fuck. Yet, I'm not allowed to have sleepovers right now because she's sick of me and my friends talking. It's so retarded. To top off everything, my grandparents are currently withholding gifts from me tomorrow. Apparently I'm such an ungrateful bitch that I don't deserve anything on Christmas. Isn't that just fantastic? I won't let them borrow my Mac and I didn't get them anything for Christmas anyway so they can go fuck themselves. I hate the holidays for this exact reason. My family has the ability to fuck up absolutely anything. It's always Christmas and my birthday, without skipping a single year ever, they fuck up both days completely to the point that I break down in tears. This Christmas though, I haven't cried. At this point, I think I'm all cried out. I've given up on feeling anything for my family. I can't wait until I can move out and into an apartment in a completely different state with a roommate and then I won't have to spend holidays with these people. This is the reason I don't want a family. I've never had good family experiences. I'm ready to leave Virginia. Once I have my license, I'm going on a road-trip to get the hell away from here. This entire county is a vortex; people can't seem to escape it. Most of these people have lived here for their entire lives. I honest to god think I'd kill myself if I spent more time than required here. Happy holidays people. At least you still have a chance at that.

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow~

We had an awesome blizzard with about 2 feet of snow on Saturday. Now it's 2 days 'til Christmas. I'm so excited.

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~Who's Gonna Run This Town Tonight?~

Ahhh okay so I can't decide who I prefer. Its definitely between M.C. and P.T. They're both completely different. One's always really nice to everybody, has a lot of friends, and I've never heard a bad thing about him. The other gets called an asshole a lot, but he's always been nice to me, and he's popular, which isn't necessarily a good thing. One is jokingly self centered and is always surrounded by girls. The other one is obnoxious, full of himself, yells at people for no reason. They both call me Tay.....and they both pay attention to me in class. One ALWAYS has something to say. One seemed to enjoy stealing my stuff. One definitely and openly looks me in the eyes whenever he talks to me. One is always nice. One always calls anybody that annoys or doesn't listen to him a bitch or worse. One has a girlfriend...and one is single. One is just...probably a completely different person away from his friends. He's probably nicer and not busy trying to be cool. One, I know practically nothing about. One, I know a lot more about than most people because he's told me. And one.....I would rather be with.

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~MisTay-ke?~

So he calls me by my nickname, which I love. He only talks to me in person, which is definitely not a bad thing. This has been a good week. I hope Banana likes that I've been positive lately. :)

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~What I Want~

I want a guy who will call me if I miss a day of school, just to make sure that I'm okay. A guy who will text me "I miss you." Someone who will show me off to his friends and not be ashamed to walk with me at his side. Someone who would be willing to apologize if they're the one that messed up. Someone who will joke around, but not to the point that it's offensive. Someone who can make me laugh, but can also be serious. Someone who actually cares and will be faithful. Someone who my 3 ultimate best friends are okay with. Someone who can actually remember important dates like my birthday and our anniversary. Someone who would be willing to suffer through at least one girly movie, especially if I'm willing to watch an action movie, which are surprisingly good. I want someone who will take the stupidest pictures ever and not freak out if I keep them on my camera afterwards. Someone who won't flip the shit if I accidently mess something up. Somebody who won't yell at me for every little thing I do wrong. Someone who will be there to text, even if it's just because we're bored. Obviously...these are longtime wishes. hahaha

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~Boys, Boys, Boys~

I have no clue whether or not I like Poptart anymore. Whenever I call him Poptart, I think of this jacket...long story. Anyways, there's this other hottie, who's name is Milk Chocolate, who is so hot like oh my god I could die. And he actually talks to me like I'm a person, unlike Poptart. Basically Milk Chocolate is most likely a better person than Poptart, but for some stupid reason I can't not like Poptart. It's really annoying and he picks random moments to pay attention to me. Once I think that I'm over him, he calls me by my nickname and asks about stuff that I like.

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow~

It snowed for the first time yesterday. It was awesome. I love snow so much. I don't feel like doing this science project that's due tomorrow. Science is so stupid. I don't want to be a scientist okay? Teacher, yes; scientist, no. I want to make a shirt, like customize one. I need a job too. I want to work at like Safeway or something. No place retarded though.

xoxo Marie the Dreamer

~Lalalala~

Got nothing to say today...for once. Manuella's over. We looked at old baby pictures of me. haha. It was.....just wow. She just slapped me and lectured me. Well she's a ho :)

xoxo Marie the Dreamer