~Happy Holidays (not)~

Somehow my family has the ability to ruin Christmas every single year. A couple years ago it was my alcoholic grandmother who managed to ruin one of the best holidays. This year, it was pretty much everybody except for me. My brother has been a complete asshole lately and today he opened the present I got for him, because we open 1 present on Christmas Eve, and he played it for about 10 minutes, and told me that he didn't want to play it anymore. Then, my grandfather decided to build a freaking desk today. I was helping him for about 30 minutes, but then I got into an argument with Jordan, and my grandfather cussed me out calling me "useless" and "ungrateful" and "a selfish bitch." So I went into my room and stayed there for a few hours. When he tried putting the computer together, he fucked something up so now his keyboard and mouse don't work. My grandmother, of course, defended him and demanded me to fix the computer for him. I said no and kept my door shut. My mother is a complete mess. She has a friend over every single fucking Christmas; most annoying thing ever. They're all weird as fuck. Yet, I'm not allowed to have sleepovers right now because she's sick of me and my friends talking. It's so retarded. To top off everything, my grandparents are currently withholding gifts from me tomorrow. Apparently I'm such an ungrateful bitch that I don't deserve anything on Christmas. Isn't that just fantastic? I won't let them borrow my Mac and I didn't get them anything for Christmas anyway so they can go fuck themselves. I hate the holidays for this exact reason. My family has the ability to fuck up absolutely anything. It's always Christmas and my birthday, without skipping a single year ever, they fuck up both days completely to the point that I break down in tears. This Christmas though, I haven't cried. At this point, I think I'm all cried out. I've given up on feeling anything for my family. I can't wait until I can move out and into an apartment in a completely different state with a roommate and then I won't have to spend holidays with these people. This is the reason I don't want a family. I've never had good family experiences. I'm ready to leave Virginia. Once I have my license, I'm going on a road-trip to get the hell away from here. This entire county is a vortex; people can't seem to escape it. Most of these people have lived here for their entire lives. I honest to god think I'd kill myself if I spent more time than required here. Happy holidays people. At least you still have a chance at that.

xoxo Marie the Dreamer