I really don't have much to say. I'm very on and off with my boyfriend. We're currently off, but on good terms. People are saying shit about my friend on formspring and it's really fucked up so they should stop.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
~Now We're Gettin' Serious~
Ugh! I seriously am starting to think that I'm the only 16 year old girl who DOESN'T want a relationship, and yet I'm the one that keeps getting freaking asked out! What the crap is this okay?! I just want to have fun, nothing serious, but no. Apparently when everything is going perfectly, I was so happy with the in-between, he has to go and make out with me at Tropical Smoothie and wrap his arms around me and then I come home to a relationship request on Facebook. Everyone is so damn needy and you know what? I want to be able to flirt and not worry that someone is going to run to my boyfriend and tell him that I was flirting with guys in class and stuff, because that's what I do; I'm a major flirt, and I love it. No strings, no nothing. But then somebody has to go and try and claim me or some shit...freaking ridiculous. I don't know what the fuck to do. As of now, it's staying unanswered.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
~2nd Day~
So...I saw "him" today and guess what? I felt NOTHING! I was expecting to feel something you know? But nope; not even a thought of how cute he is or anything. It was AWESOME! Then yesterday the ex from hell wouldn't leave me alone, even though he has a girlfriend now that goes to Dominion apparently. Whatever. They're called "exes" for a reason. So with the new guy, who I have yet to think of a codename for, doesn't have any classes with me, so I might have to think of a new plan yeah? I completely forgot that when we hung out we took pictures, so there's a picture of him on my phone that I didn't know was there hahaha. So now I have to think of a way to get his attention and all that crap. I've never had to try before, but I'm always up for a challenge.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
~Really? Seriously?~
You know what it's like not being able to talk to one of your best friends; someone who you would always go to for advice and things and they could always make you laugh or whatever? Well apparently I can't be best friends with him anymore because apparently he told his girlfriend (who I'm also friends with) that he used to like me, and so she's jealous or something and basically, I haven't actually talked to him in months and it's just like...He was always super easy to talk to about ANYTHING and just the fact that after all of these years he's picking his girlfriend over me is just annoying. We've always been just friends, and we'll always be best friends. His girlfriend could've just come and asked me about it and everything would've been cleared up, but that would've been too easy now wouldn't it have? I just miss having him around... He would always listen and of course just had to give me his opinion no matter what I said, but I need someone like that around, and he filled that role for so long that I don't know what to do without having that in my life. I probably sound pathetic and whiny or whatever, but I just really want him back as a best friend; a guy to talk to without having any pressure to measure up to some high standard because you want him to like you; a guy who just likes you for you, flaws and all, and is willing to call you out on them...
Obviously, I have major guy issues in my life...
January: broke up with a clinger after 3 weeks
May: broke up with another clinger after 1 week
June: got my heart stomped on by someone who I'd been growing to like since November
and then towards the end of school: lost a best friend because of a jealous girlfriend
...Can we just go back to freshman year and start over again? Please?
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
~Shark In The Water~
Ugh...same person as normal, "M", could possibly be the most annoying person on the planet...just gonna throw that out there. She keeps bitching and just like..shut the fuck up already. Nobody cares alright?! Even your two "best" friends talk shit about you with the rest of us. :)
Oh and me and a couple people are planning a hopefully, will-be, awesome surprise and it's going to be AMAZING...but I can't spill any details now, so yeah...you'll find out soon enough...or will you?!?!
...Nah you will
Monday, August 30, 2010
~Long Time No See~
I never update this, but I needed a place to say this where I know for a fact that the people that read this won't judge me or anything, and they can totally ask me questions alright?
...I feel like...no matter what I do, I'll never get over him and that kinda scares me. I feel like no matter what I do, I'll always want his approval and I shouldn't care, and I haven't, but I haven't seen him in almost 3 months, and we won't have any classes or lunches together...but I'm just scared of what's going to happen when I see him. Because now I kinda might like this other guy, who's actually a decent human being, and not a complete toolbag like the last guy...but it's not the same...I don't want it as badly you know? I don't want to compare people to something that never was, but it definitely seems like that's what's going to happen, and it just makes me feel like a bad person, like I don't deserve for anybody to care about me because I don't know how to completely get over this guy, because I thought that I was done, but now I'm nervous and stuff and it's just freaking me out because I thought that this was over/finished forever... I'm so stupid for even thinking about him; freaking douchebag. UGH! This is so...bad; completely terrible. I'm even avoiding the place that he works because I don't want to see him there, because we used to flirt there and DAMN IT. He's permanently screwed me over I think. He just HAD to go and lie and say that he didn't like me, but if he would've just not been arrogant he would've known that I didn't want to date him. Of course iTunes now hates me as well apparently because "Crush" just came on...fantastic. Thanks for mocking me inanimate object from hell. The new guy...something could probably happen, but I'm scared of it ending like the last time...I really can't deal with that again. I mean I lost the first guy completely; we haven't even talked since that day, so we're definitely not even close to being friends again. A part of me wants me to get the new guy, if nothing else than to just see if it'd make guy 1 jealous...it's messed up I know. The new guy told me that if my ex kept texting me that he'd call him and say that we're together and that he needed to leave me alone...is it wrong that that actually made me feel a little bit better? I think that we'd be good together, but I definitely can't be the one to make the first move. He flirted a few times today, and it was awesome haha. So...hopefully something might happen...I don't know. I think two months was long enough for a boy break :)
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
~I Dreamed a Dream~
Wow...first time in months! What's up? The one time I wish a guy would just tell me he likes me and make an obvious move, he decides to have morals. He has NO morals at all, ever, in any circumstance; now he decides to be a good person. GREAT timing! Not! He called me nice. Like seriously? I'm not nice...at all. Everyone knows this. He totally likes me back, but won't act on it. He wants to "stay just friends...for now." That's such crap. I might be moving to New York this summer, possibility but definitely not certain, and if I actually do move then I'd never know what'd happen with him...And there's a hot guy at the gas station, I don't know if he still works there, but he's really super hot and he checks me out a lot. Then...my ex (latest one) is going to be a freshman at my school next year and we're on like friendly terms...fuck my life. Summer is no time for relationships (unless they're started way before summertime.) So maybe after summer something'll happen with the first guy? I really hope so...I mean he totally stopped working at work just to talk to me. He's a total manwhore, but now it's like "let's have morals. haopidjlskhfaosidlkfjhaoklsdjfhakosld." THIS BLOWS! Three days left in sophomore year...I don't know where this year went at all. I'm leaving for Canada in 5 days... Everything's going way too fast...I wish I just had one person who I could trust to not go around telling everybody my business; someone for me to talk to. Oh well...maybe I'll use my ex-boyfriend who's almost a freshman as a best friend? Hahaha...that'd be epic.
~Marie the Dreamer
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
If you could change one thing that happened last year what would it be?
i wouldn't waste my time being friends with people who aren't worth it
If your house was on fire and you could only grab three things, what would they be?
phone, computer, and pictures
Saturday, March 6, 2010
If you could go on a road trip with any person, dead or alive, who would it be and where would you go?
i honestly don't know who i'd go with, but i'd drive from d.c. to california across the middle of the country
Friday, March 5, 2010
formspring.me
If you could eliminate one thing you do each day in the bathroom so you never had to do it again, what would it be?
wtf? i don't know lol
formspring.me
does size matter?
yeah why wouldn't it? hahaha. i mean unless i really liked the person...then i'd just deal w it. lol
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
formspring.me
whats your favorite childhood memory? hint: it better include me :)
i have a feeling who this is, so i hope i'm right. lol. i lovedddddd playing w my 2 best friends, bonnie nd katie, like every single day. sooo much fun
formspring.me
Where is cooler: Washington D.C. or Washington State? Answer wisely....
haha. i'm used to d.c. and i've always wanted to go to Seattle, so i'll go with Washington State :)
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
~What is Going On?~
Oh and to make my week even better, my family is being a bunch of jerks and I really can't stand them. All of these colleges are sending me stuff, like really good colleges; it's weirding me out. I'm watching Sonny with a Chance. Don't judge, I just find Sterling Knight really hot. Oh, so yesterday, my grandpa was on the computer, and he randomly looked up St. Petersburg. A place that he knows I've always wanted to visit. It's not fair for him to like rub it in my face that I can't go to my dream place. Now my ex-boyfriend, who I dumped like 3 weeks ago, just posted a Valentine's Day "love gift" or something on my Facebook wall. He's clingy and I dumped him and he needs to get over it. There's a reason I dumped you, realize it, embrace it, accept it. I REALLY WANNA GO SHOPPING. Random, yes; necessary, yes. All of my friends are ignoring me, and it's weirding me out. So I was just like "screw you guys. forget it." I haven't hung out with people since the last day of school literally 2 weeks ago, and that was during class; it doesn't even count. Let's have a secret prom! I can have a sexy date and I would love that a lot. Wow...that was really random. Please ignore my weird self if you've forced yourself to read this far. OH MY GOD my birthday is 4 days after the Dover race. This is major to me. AND OH MY GOD JUSTIN BIEBER MIGHT BE GOING ON TOUR THIS SUMMER! Oh, and Bianca's birthday present better work out.
Love and Rockets,
Marie the Dreamer
~Grrrrr~
I hate when I consider someone a friend, like I take the trouble to invite them over and schedule to hang out with them and all of that crap because I'm making an effort, and then they don't even invite you to their birthday party, their Sweet 16, and they KNOW that you're going to find out. This is why people really suck sometimes.
Love and Rockets,
Marie the Dreamer
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
~Snow and Olympics~
So it's snowing once again. We're up to about 40" of snow. It's not too pleasant to drive in. It's up past my knee right now I think and I'm about 5'7. Oh so anyway, the Caps are on a 14 game win streak. It's pretty sweet. The Vancouver Olympics start in 2 days. Hockey starts next week. NHL is taking a 2 week break for it. Kinda sucks, kinda rocks. I'm really tired right now. In my lifetime, I've met 4 Olympians I think. 3 of them are Russian and 1 of them is American. I only like 2 of them though. I've met Alex Ovechkin, Semyon Varlamov, and Evgeni Plushenko. They're the Russians obviously. The American is Sarah Hughes, the figure skater who won gold at like 16. I met her the year after she did that I think. She was nice. Evgeni was an ass. I still don't like him to this day. Ovechkin and Varlamov were chill though.
Love and Rockets,
Marie the Dreamer
Saturday, January 30, 2010
~BEST DAY OF MY LIFE~
I met Alex Ovechkin today, Semyon Varlamov, and Brooks Laich. I got a head nod, like a major one, from Varly and a smile. Ovechkin I got an autograph from and a picture with him. I'm extremely happy.
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
~Wow I'm Cool~
So for the past 3 hours I've been playing Modern Warfare 2. It's pretty beast and I'm glad I bought it. Tomorrow, I'm completely cluster fucked. This is exam week and tomorrow is hell day for me. I have 3rd and 4th block exams, which is AP history and Algebra 2. Basically, I'm completely fucked and I'm going to fail majorly. I'm at the point where I don't even give a damn. How many classes can you fail and still pass the grade? lol. This might be an appropriate question. Blahh I gotta study, but I'm studying and watching hockey. Nothing new there.
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
Saturday, January 23, 2010
~Dear God, Why Don't You Like Me Sometimes?~
Dear God, if you're ever going to listen to me, now would be a FANTASTIC time to start. I've been over Poptart for a couple months. Now...you gotta start this shit again. Everytime that one of my best friends is about to date someone, or is dating someone, he's all of a sudden friends with Poptart. This is pissing me off now. Make up your mind already. Have him be single and ask me out or something or like me. That'd be great. I'd really appreciate it and then maybe I'd start going to mass again. Deal? I think yes. Hold up your end God. Otherwise...we'll be talking in a few years.
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
Thursday, January 21, 2010
~Wow...I Love Texting~
I just broke up with my boyfriend...over text message. hahahahaha. Yet another reason why I'm not a nice person. I didn't feel like calling. Texting's faster. Oh and I'm having a decent day and the Caps are playing the Penguins tonight!! WOO! LET'S GO CAPS! I'm obsessed with this song Carry-Out. Much love for Justin Timberlake ever since I was like 4 years old.
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
~To Banana~
Dear Banana,
Thank you. I might talk to you, but as you know, I'm not big on talking to people about things. So don't feel offended if I don't okay? Thanks for the offer though. I watched The Lovely Bones and cried through the entire movie; like badly. You're not insane. I totally think the same way about the whole death thing. I've had these dreams before and they're like detailed and they're of these times of long ago. It sounds really weird. I'm watching Grey's Anatomy right now. It's really sad and messed up, this episode is from a few years ago. I might cry...no I think we're good. I've watched this episode numerous times. Oh, and I left after gym because my mom had surgery so I left early to be with her. I really want a McFlurry. If you bring me one right now, I'll love you forever and ever because you'll be amazing and awesome. As of right now, you're definitely top 3 of my best friends. And oh snap, she just killed a man. Sorry...not you. Anyways, I believe that is all. I'm watching tonight's American Idol now. This season...I'm not feeling it. It's lost people with actual talent. Even the auditions aren't fun anymore. OMG DISNEY WORLD. I hated disney world when I went there as an 8 year-old. I like the guest judges this season. WE SHOULD TRY OUT. Nah I'm just kidding. I love Kristen Chenowith. She's one of my singing idols. OHMYGOD WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS GUY DOING?! OH DEAR GOD...I'M SCARED. HIS SPARKLES ARE SCARING ME! HE CAN'T EVEN SING. I'm...going to go hide under the covers.
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
Monday, January 18, 2010
~What Do You Want From Me?~
I'm so pissed off right now so I'm writing this. I'm sick of people and their stupid selves ruining things for me. Everyone calls me a bitch and whatever; well I've been taking care of people since I was 7 and my entire world fell apart. People sit there and run their mouths, even family who's supposed to always be on your side. So I've basically cried this entire weekend. Complete fucking waste of time. The only highlight was seeing The Lovely Bones the other day, and even that got fucked up. So you know what? I'm fucking over people and all of their shit that they start. I hate Virginia so much. I need to get the hell out of here as soon as possible. People are just...horrible here. I can maybe stand 5 people, maybe. Oh and to make it better, I'm pretty sure that my "boyfriend" is saying shit behind my back to his friends. I don't even fucking like him, but saying shit behind someone's back, especially someone that you said "I LOVE YOU" to after 1 fucking day, I'm pretty sure love doesn't involve being a jackass. I'm so pissed and nothing's going right and I can't seem to change it and I don't fit in and I don't have true friends who'll always be there and I'm just fucking done. Because what if this isn't our only life? What if we have multiple lives and after we die in each one, we completely forget it and start like it's the first time all over again? It's just an endless cycle. You could've been someone extremely famous, like Marilyn Monroe, and you would never remember it, but you would always feel a connection to her and idolize her without knowing that that was actually you.
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
Saturday, January 2, 2010
~They Call Her Love, Love, Love~
I'm obsessed with this song "She is Love" by Parachute. Thanks to Banana for telling me about them awhile ago after the Kelly Clarkson concert she went to. Oh my god okay so on January 30th, I'm going to be at the mall the entire day. Because it's going to be the greatest day of my life. I'm determined to make it that way. I'm going to drag Emi and probably Bibi along with me, even though they could care less. Ahh...I love 2010 already. If some shit happens to ruin this month for me, I'm going to be super pissed.
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
Friday, January 1, 2010
~What Up 2010?~
I graduate in 2 freaking years. That's kinda scary. Oh and this year is going to be fucking beast. Like it has to be. Today I got a boyfriend, who I'm really hoping isn't going to read this. So 1/1/10 is proving to be a really good day. He came over last night so he was hanging out with me, Bibi, and Emi. It was fun, especially cuz I completely beat his ass at Guitar Hero. haha. Ahh...but yeah he's chill and so far my best friends don't disagree and they're alright with him. I don't know what else to say.... Have a happy 2010? Yeah that works. Happy new year! Happy new decade!
xoxo Marie the Dreamer
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