You know what it's like not being able to talk to one of your best friends; someone who you would always go to for advice and things and they could always make you laugh or whatever? Well apparently I can't be best friends with him anymore because apparently he told his girlfriend (who I'm also friends with) that he used to like me, and so she's jealous or something and basically, I haven't actually talked to him in months and it's just like...He was always super easy to talk to about ANYTHING and just the fact that after all of these years he's picking his girlfriend over me is just annoying. We've always been just friends, and we'll always be best friends. His girlfriend could've just come and asked me about it and everything would've been cleared up, but that would've been too easy now wouldn't it have? I just miss having him around... He would always listen and of course just had to give me his opinion no matter what I said, but I need someone like that around, and he filled that role for so long that I don't know what to do without having that in my life. I probably sound pathetic and whiny or whatever, but I just really want him back as a best friend; a guy to talk to without having any pressure to measure up to some high standard because you want him to like you; a guy who just likes you for you, flaws and all, and is willing to call you out on them...
Obviously, I have major guy issues in my life...
January: broke up with a clinger after 3 weeks
May: broke up with another clinger after 1 week
June: got my heart stomped on by someone who I'd been growing to like since November
and then towards the end of school: lost a best friend because of a jealous girlfriend
...Can we just go back to freshman year and start over again? Please?
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